A very good message...inspirational and much needed for me in my life.
I feel that many of my past blogs highlight the downs in my life, and hardly the ups. Which, I want to assure you, with my modeling, that is not the case :] I enjoy my modeling very much, and take it seriously. I know I have much more practice to be had before 'becoming' the amazing model I want to be, but I have been well informed that I am already pretty amazing, for which I am grateful. I know part of my existence is To Serve. I am a People Pleaser, and I like to perform well and be credited now and then, because as a (mostly) Extrovert, part of how I perceive myself and deal with my inner world has to be reflected in my outer world and touched by other people outside of me. If I make someone happy, and they show that to me, and to others, I feel gratified, and like I have meaning, and that I am doing things right. And vice-versa. I do realize there is even more to be said that can be helpful in discovering my inner world and relying on how I feel and think about myself that is equally (if not more) important; which is why I can't rely on my modeling to absolutely justify my existence; because I will have good days, and I will have not so good days, and sometimes I will be the perfect model for someone and a not-so-desirous model for another....and that's okay. At least I'm getting a kick out of it ;]
I do think that even though I enjoy my modeling, I can't allow myself and my time to be used inappropriately, (which fortunately rarely happens) and my modeling is not the only and primary way I want to live and be recognized. But I do want to continue to do it for as long as I can [: