Cold New Year

A 'behind the scenes' kind of shot from my last shoot. Dave Brown, December 2012

It's winter. It's cold. 

I find myself low on funds, which is frustrating. I spent a greater part of today looking to see if I could arrange paid gigs with people as a figure model. It seems like finding work should be easier than it is. 

I did some life drawing modeling last night with a small group, which I was glad to get back into. The only problem was my feeling jittery (not from caffeine, surprisingly) and too cold. Again, I left feeling tense and exhausted. I slept well, at least. I am trying to decide if it is up to me to purchase my own space heater for life modeling or if I should bug the coordinator to do that. 

The holidaze is almost over. Only one more big event and the year comes to a close, if only for a moment. This next year I strongly feel will have many important changes. Hopefully I will be able to model more often, and continue modeling later in the year when I start school again. There is much to think about in the new year...

Rainy Shoot

Polaroids shot by David Brown, December 2012

 I had the pleasure of meeting a film photographer who was interested in shooting me for some ideas he had for art magazine entries and personal work. I haven't been too keen on trade shoots lately but this was a successful one. I will have to wait some time for photos but I'm patient ;P

I met David at BART and we went to a sweet spot tucked away in some hills that I didn't even know existed, which was overlooking the bay in some places. It was raining, though not overwhelmingly so. He had checked out the areas he wanted to shoot at before, so we walked along the damp trail and stopped wherever he planned to shoot. I liked shooting with David - he has a calming presence and was considerate of my comfort. It was cold but I managed to hold out till the end. The last spot we shot at was in this lovely little grove of eucalyptus with a bench in the middle. This was the only place where I posed fully nude. I was so ready to put my clothes on again after that! :D 

In the next week I will be DONE with school. Like, for 8 months. No more junior college for me. I have applied elsewhere (UCs and CSUs), but really need to make up my mind about stuff (life, school...). 

I am looking forward to this opportunity to model more often :]

Need

 Photo by Spencer Delamore. Me with straight hair! (this is an older one).

I need to model! It's been too long :[

I could really use some new images in my port...

x.x

....

As a Model

Pros: 
fairly flexible
dancerly poses
can sit still (I draw models, so I know how important it is!)
totally okay with nudity!
have my own transportation
doesn't need an escort
unique look ( I suppose)*
can fit in small places
has a lot of visible anatomy  (great for those learning to draw or sculpt right?!)
willing to hike, get dirty, cold, wet, painted or drawn on (so far)
likes to work with other models

Cons:
doesn't have a huge wardrobe
doesn't have much experience in makeup
mild adult acne (booooo)
*one tattoo, piercings (ears), gauged earlobes (2), 'natural' look
can be shy, nervous, lacking confidence (I know, I know...)
dislikes over-photoshopped images
occasional smoker 

Laced

Photos by Kofi (aka Amoa Photography), October 2012

Mauvais and Lixie Din

Had another duo model shoot! :] It went well. I am glad to be finally seeing some sample photos. I always enjoy me some black and white photos. The varying textures of our body stockings (a first for the both of us haha) looks neat, too. This was the last shoot I did....have not done any modeling since :[

Freeee

So my nail fell off. It brings me relief because it no longer snags in my hair when I am washing it in the shower and there is no longer a huge dark spot on my finger. It still looks weird, but feels better and is much easier to work around, I think.
I had a shoot in SF yesterday with a new model and photographer. An enjoyable shoot! I left feeling accomplished and pleased to have met some new talented people :]
So, I'm responding back to messages for shoots. It's silly to have stopped, but I do sometimes get overwhelmed with life and with insecurities (which, I believe modeling is slowly going to be helping me get past all that).

Yay freedom! And coffee.

Nailed

[Oh boy, a shitty webcam photo of me! No makeup, un-showered and with a smashed nail that is falling off....]

I have been meaning to update for a while, but again, I've allowed some sort of monster sneak back into my life, which has left me feeling irritable, lacking confidence, and overall discontent. 

 I have not done any modeling for a while. I have not been feeling 100% lately, and would rather not model until I feel better and have a better grip on my classes....again. I don't want to half-ass a modeling gig. Then there is the fact that I smashed my left index finger in my car door about a month or two ago, and the nail is (unfortunately) falling off...not a pretty sight. But it may take a few months for it to heal...and I don't want to wait that long to model.

x_________x

So I am hoping things will work out...modeling or not. Keep patience, everyone...