Lucian Schmit, 2013 - Portland, OR area.

Yay for getting lots of new photos in the last few days :] (including the one above, which was a film shot taken while I was on my northwest tour, about a year ago).

I've had two pretty full modeling weeks, managing to remain (hardly) unscathed! (though, I did obtain some minor cuts and sprains...nothing to worry about!) 

I've met a few new photographers recently as well, and enjoyed those new shoots. With all this warm weather, albeit DRY, UNSEASONAL weather, I've been absolutely comforted going outdoors for nude shoots. I got to romp in old buildings, climb trees, nestle in grass, hike in the woods, and pose in my velvet cloak (for the first time, ever).  I thought I would have to wait till Spring for outdoor shoots....but for some reason I'm having a feeling California will simply skip Spring this year, and go into a long and dry summer...

I had my first life drawing session modeling session last night - the first in about a month, I think? Maybe longer. Sherry Kwint-Cattoche is  wonderful woman and an amazing artist to boot. I love her studio because it looks like how I'd have my studio. She has interesting things scattered and piled and hung all over the place in there. I held a few fives, then a twenty, then a long standing pose the rest of the time. It sure feels good to know I can still hold a pose well! I don't usually 'do' New Years' resolutions, but one I have had in mind is to get in shape, and to start that by simply being more active. I have been doing pretty well so far. I have just been avoiding sitting for long periods of time, and trying to get in exercise. One would think as a model, I would be getting all the exercise in the world...but that has long been the problem with my body type - it is  blessing and a curse to appear like a dancer but to not have the strength of one. (womp womp)

So in the meantime, off to get working on that ;D

And here's Sherry's paint studies of me from last night :] 

[oil pint studies by Sherry Kwint-Cattoche, 2014]

Life Shift

Photo: Alen Barbosa, 2013

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Let's just say that, as a young lady in her early 20's - I have a lot to figure out (no pun intended). My term, it seems, with the GGA has ended for now; I applied for an internship several weeks ago that I just discovered today I did not get. I was actually very much looking forward to that life shift, that new routine I'd get all accustomed to that would maybe hopefully lead to a new kind of lifestyle and would teach me more than I think I know about myself. No such luck, at least, not yet.

So today has been a bit melancholy; but I am still trying to pursue other interests that will lead me somewhere. I'm not sure where I'm trying to go, in general or even as a model. I go back and forth between wanting to really step up my game and do more with my modeling - there could be potential - and yet the next moment I am woefully telling myself that I should just stop and that modeling is nonsense. I believe neither but it is good to recognize that (I'm assuming) all models struggle with this at one point or another. Unless I'm totally wrong and the fact that I do this means something else entirely....

I guess what I'm trying to write is, I'll still have plenty of time to model, for better or worse.

I could really use some refreshing modeling sessions!

Happy 2014 :P